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so im sitting in starbucks right now, taking full advantage of my partner privileges of free internet. its a small starbucks. 5 tables. i came in tonight assuming because its a rainy saturday eve it would be packed in here, but lo and behold, no one! the only human life in here are the partners who work here, working and hanging out. awesome! i take out my computer, order my drink and oatmeal(withsoyandfruitandnuts-bellportsummerstyle), and proceed to put on some music, because for some reason, this starbucks plays the same music over and over and over and it kind of makes me want to take my drink to go. i take out my crazy 90's style magenta headphones(dewayne-the luckiest dumpster diver of all time found these) and put them on. i go to myspace, because its the only website i can think of that i can play music almost on demand, and think...hmmm what do i want to listen to?! so many choices...ill start with passion pit. all ive heard of them are the random songs i get to hear once in a while on my blackberry pandora, and quite honestly i am particularly into them. psyched to hear a potentially sweet song, i turn up the volume and music starts playing. my headphones sound like shit!! all muffled and weird. fuck my life, my one pair of sweet pink headphones are busted. oh well, better than hearing that weird fabric softener with moms and children in a flowery field song again, blasting through the starbucks lobby. about 3 minutes go by and one of the employees comes over to me, staring at me, like, right in the face, like hes trying to read my brain waves or melt me with his eye lazers and says, DO YOU KNOW YOUR MUSIC IS ON REALLY LOUD!!?? so im allhdfskjnhdsklfjwwwttffff? and i take the headphones off and the muffled music stops and the blaring sounds of passion pit begin. i had no excuse for this one. i just kept my face in the blank, shocked state it was in and turned a very deep and bold shade of red and slowly turned my volume down. then i dropped things on the floor like my spoon. and then, i was over it. i could have been playing some much more potentially awkward blaring in a semi quiet lobby music like, say, fall out boy, leftover crack, or dimmu borgir. at least i now know the headphones will make good mufflers, for those nights when that dog across the street wont shut the fuck up.

on to more pressing issues like these sweet illustrations i came across today created by aurel schmidt. i guess shes been around for a while but i am just discovering these now. i find myself attracted to polar opposites of all kinds, like these drawings of "ugliness"- filth, pests, and garbage, things which are disposable and not given a second thought, all formed together in such detail and placement to create this amazing image of elegance and fascination. things that most want to turn away from, or disregard entirely, catching your attention because they are hidden and disguised. plus, im just in awe of the time and patience it takes to create these images. i think a lot of people consider drawing from life bland or boring or just pass it by looking for a more "expressive" way to create. they think of pieces created to hang on living room walls, which are fine. yeah, fine. i think thats maybe what turned me away from this form, i couldnt quite figure out a way to get beyond, and get over the plain fact that creating art is work and that it takes time, sometimes a lot of time. i like instant gratification. but this has opened my eyes to the possibilities again, because i have almost entirely lost my interest and pursuit of this.